I think something that is important to remember is that we aren't our body. When we look in the mirror we think we are seeing ourselves but truly we aren't. We are seeing our body, the vessel that we inhabit. We are so much more than our body, the essence of us lies within our soul and I believe that our body and our soul are two different things. My body may be betraying me, failing me but I can't allow my soul to break because without my soul, I am nothing. You can live in a body without limbs, in a body that won't move, in a body that is slowly dying, YOU, your thoughts, your beliefs, your personality, your emotions are still there. But what good is a perfect body without a healthy soul? I'm not speaking religiously, like you need to save your soul. I'm speaking just matter of fact, you need to take care of your soul. If you are depressed you need to get help, if you are constantly speaking to yourself, of yourself, in ways that you wouldn't allow anyone to talk to your best friend, well then there is a problem and you need to work on building yourself up. Whatever you need to do to take care of your soul, do it, whatever you need to be happy, do it. It's hard living like this and it is all too easy to give into the sadness and depression that comes with the loss of who you were and the dreams that you had for yourself so we must be extra vigilant.
Also, by finally coming to the realization that I am a soul in a body, rather than I am broken, by separating those things I am able to separate who I am from the illness. It is easier for me to say my body needs to rest now so I will rest, before it felt like I was giving in, like I was a failure because I couldn't push through, I felt like the disease was winning. Now I see my soul and my body were at odds, now I am kinder to my body. I'm not sure if this makes any sense to anyone else. I'm trying to explain it and I don't feel like it is coming out the way that I intended at all. So I will end this for now lol.
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